Sunday, July 3
just watched artificial intelligence. missed the first bit. thank goodness or i wouldn't just be tearing, i'd be bawling my damned eyes out.
what is wrong with me??? i think i've cried more in the past 6 months than i did the whole of secondary school put together. then again i think i controlled my tears better then. ah to hell with it. i'm a girl, i can cry. it was just so sad. i can't think of any other word. my brain is still a bit overwhelmed. i think my sister wanted to throw me out of the window cos i kept bugging her during the commercial breaks about why david couldn't cut his mother's hair and why he kept saying teddy wasn't a real boy and all the terribly in-your-face symbolism that i happen to dig. ah well.
i have not started studying for history paper 3!! arghhhhhhhhhh. so much for having the whole weekend! i am a useless bum! i will now get offline and stop being a useless bum! i will become.. a bum! semi-useless. i will not think about shows. i will not think about certain things. and i will not fall asleep.
my cap teacher just called my house. how smart. my sister picked up the phone, with the tv blaring in the background. and she's a little bit hard of hearing. and he's very soft spoken. apparently she said 'huh??' and 'pardon?' and 'sorry?' about 3 times. sigh. then she yelled for me and i clomped down the stairs yelling, 'why is the phone downstairs??' before i realised it was my teacher. ah there goes my demure, soft spoken, reserved image. she asked if he's gay. i said i've seen him wear a wedding ring, but maybe gay marriages are now allowed. i am compelled to mention that while most gays speak well, sometimes you get male english teachers as well!
i just re-discovered what my chinese name means. yun means rhyme. ling has vague connections with feminine things that are exquisite, delicate, etc. bah.
it must've been love.
9:54 pm
xoxo
